MC LASER / THE SIRIUS CYBERNETICS CORP. - "POETRY OF DECAY" - V1.1
'when the two suns of sirius rises from the west...
the time of the circling poets has come'
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[ commit suicide ] .
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...I'm sitting in my room :
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: let yourself go... you are falling...
: objects appear... and disappear again...
: music is comin' up... paralyzing your mind...
: a neverending loop...
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: let yourself go... you are flying...
: objects morphing around you...
: music is becoming louder... and louder...
: taking control of your mind...
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: I'm watching the rain falling down to:earth:::::::
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: the birds are singin' like on a summer's day...
: there is no moving at all except
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: I feel it's getting colder...
: In the distance I hear the sound of a church bell
: disturbing the innocent silence of this place...
: if the whole mankind didn't exist, the whole
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[ summer day ] .
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...I'm sitting here... on a nice summer day :
...as I look above :
...I see white clouds driftin' through a bright blue sky :
...the birds are having conversations with each other :
...mother nature is still green :
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: I see the fog of the autumn morning before me...
: the leaves are falling from the trees
: and the green ground turned into brown...
: my hair gets moisted by the dew that fill the air...
: I'm wandering over the misty soil
: on my search for the meaning of life...
: is there a lifeform called 'god'?
: or are we only born to die?
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[ winter night ] .
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...yesterday :
...I left the old year behind me :
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...It's dark now but the ground is pretty bright white :
...winter has returned :
...icicles are hanging down from the tree :
...looking like a remainder of the glacial period :
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: are carrying the little butterfly on his journey...
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[ hell wie Magnesium ] .
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...Ich blickte in den glasklaren Sternenhimmel :
...Die Sterne wirkten wie Nadelstiche in blauem Transparentpapier :
...meine Gedanken wanderten zurueck in vergangene Zeiten :
...schon so oft habe ich diese Sternenkonstellation ;
vor meinen Augen gesehen :
...urploetzlich erschien eine Sternschnuppe am Himmel :
rasend schnell und hell wie Magnesium. :
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: I was looking into the clear blue sky...
: the stars looked like pinholes in blue transparentpaper...
: my thoughts were wandering back to past times...
: I have seen that starconstellation for so often before my eyes...
: and then... quite fast a shooting star appeared at the sky...
: very fast and bright like magnesium.
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[ another sundown ] .
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...I'm lying relaxed in my car :
...and the red sun is going down behind me :
...total lonelyness :
...only the animals and insects :
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...It's one of the last days of summer :
...autumn is near and will triumph as every year :
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: moving lights...
: yellow and red...
: the radio's playing...
: I don't wanna go to bed...
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: : ...my eyes are staring at your chair :
: : ...which is lonely standing there :
: : ...I think of you coz' you're not here :
: : now that I left all my fears. ;
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: : ...you told me I am just your friend :
: ' ...around my heart blows a cold wind :
: .......... I hope this pain comes to an end. :
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...I stand at the abyss :
...staring in the depth :
...one step ahead :
...and I could be dead :
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. [ child ]
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: I want to be
: a child again
: when problems where
: so far away...
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' child (c) 1998 stefan benz
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[ the death of a tree ] .
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...a childhood memory :
...a large tree :
...standing in the garden :
...of my family :
:
...we played :
...we laughed :
...we climbed on it :
...until it died :
SHIT! :
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/____/ /____/mcl!/____/_________/____/____/_________/
. [ friend ]
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: I see clouds
: feel the wind
: hear the sound
: I'm your friend
:
: the water flows
: until the end
: nobody counted
: the time we've spent
:
: my poetry rhyme
: spoken words I've lend
: is vanished from earth
: like you my friend
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' friend (c) 1998 stefan benz
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[ poem of decay ] .
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remember back :
we'll started the same :
thirsty for new stuff :
hungry for fame :
:
the stuff is gone :
and so the fame :
now it's only :
a surviving game :
:
but even if we're in delay :
we will never go away :
it's the end but we will stay :
we, the poets of decay. :
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. [ Our banners ]
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: we raise our banners
: into the stormy winds
: we're surrounded by our enemies
: and most of us were killed.
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: a resistance once strong
: is now buried and gone.
: so we stand alone
: and our enemies have won?
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[ hopes ] .
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...the sound of the rain :
...soothes my soul :
...the comeback of memories :
...makes me feel old :
:
...but my memory fades :
...the yearning gets less :
...my hopes are smashed :
...like heaven's trash :
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: [ the storyteller ]
:
: he's sitting on a chair...
: like a storyteller...
: who's telling tales...
: of our forgotten past...
:
: glorious achievements...
: of our broken empire...
: have slowly...
: turned into dust...
:
: what remain is the memory...
: and people like him...
: who tell how it was...
: and will never be again...
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[ underwater sunlight ] :
:
...I'm on my morning walk :
...down... in the depths of the deepest sea :
...the deepest sea on this violated little planet :
...no one can hear your cries down here :
...no lifeforms at all :
...this vast emptiness is filling my heart with fear :
...but as I lift my head :
the rays of the underwater sunlight :
are giving me new hope. ;
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inspired by :
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Tangerine Dream's album 'underwater sunlight'- :
(c) 1986 Zomba Productions limited :
Achim Settelmeier's Track 'Underwater sunlight 1+2'- :
(c) 1992 Unreleased to the public :
The Future Sound of London's Track 'My Kindom'- :
(c) 1996 Astralwerks/Virgin Records Ltd :
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: [ that night ]
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: it all started many years ago...
: I can clearly remember...
: the moments on the roof top of my sister's house...
: when we were starspotting
: and talking about the things of our interest...
: we told secrets to each other...
: and our deepest fears...
: it felt so good that sleep came easy that night...
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[ The wanderer ] .
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...In the shadows of the elder trees :
...at the edge of the forest :
...he decided to take a rest ;
...sad melodies filled the air :
all in all they didn't fit :
into the picture of this beautiful day. :
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. [ window of memories ]
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: on the window of memories
: I relive my youth
: I look through the glass
: not much changed since the past
:
: I just sit here...
: doing nothing at all
: and my mind wanders back
: to life before death.
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[ questions ] .
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"I'll finish it :
And then I'll quit." :
That's the quote :
that TAT once said. :
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...but now he left :
...many questions we have :
...why he did that step :
...and left us back :
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: [ evening skies ]
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; I watch the evening sky
: cloud castles passing by
: then the sun fades away
: it's the end of the day.
:
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[ in my heart ] .
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when it's dark outside :
rain falls in the night :
then please hold me tight :
my love and life. :
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[________][________][________][________________][________][________][________]
"This colly was actually planned to be released back in 1999, but as I
am longing for perfection I wanted to include an Ascii-Logo for every
poem I've done. It was far too much for me and my limited time to do
them all by myself so I contacted some famous ascii-writers to help me
out. ... But it didn't work out as I planned and now I'm fed up with
waiting for those logos... Just imagine beautiful ascii logos instead of
those lame singleline shit, ok? Oh man, ascii artists - UCANTRUSSEM! ;-)
Sometimes I ask myself what I'm doing all this here for? So many time
spent in computers. So many money spent in swapping. So many disks got
lost in swapping.. but even swapping lost it's sense since the spreading
of CD-ROM's. If you wanna contact me then send a mail to this address:
[ mc_laser@atari.org ]
who?: stefan_benz^mc_laser^lotek_style
crew: .tSCc.^iCEBiRD^vinyl_kartell
whot: poetry_works_1993-1999
________ ________ ________ ________________ ________ ________ ________
[________][________][________][________________][________][________][________]
[ credits ]
Commit Suicide logo
Threaz/Damones^Twisted
Our banners & The Wanderer
Bull/Link124
logos for Hell wie Magnesium, Bright like magnesium & Another sundown
Riven/Thelo0p^MysticBytes^Logrus
battle angel Alita converted
Dynacore/.tSCc.
all poems, general design, ascii and lame single-line logos
MC Laser/.tSCc.
________ ________ ________ ________________ ________ ________ ________
[________][________][________][________________][________][________][________]
I've seen things
you people wouldn't believe
attack ships on fire off the shoulder of orion
I watched C-Beams glitter in the dark at the tannhauser gate
all those moments will be lost
in time
like
tears
in rain
(Rutger Hauer as Roy Batty in Blade Runner)
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